April 4, 2018

I have been thinking about the pursuit of recognition and fame as another thing to #resist lately. Maybe it's a few conversations I've had recently, or the long drawn out work of realizing I'm good enough for what I'm doing and who I am (and actually being proud of what I've done) that set me on this trajectory. But I've been thinking more about the importance of friends and community over this idea that I've always had about proving something to a lot of people I don't know. Maybe it's more important to focus on the small groups of people we know or meet along the way rather than trying to impress some mass of readership or a fanbase. Maybe our power to change things doesn't have to be on a scale any larger than the block we live on or the county we live in.

 

April 3, 2018

Keep it to yourself, it's a secret
Keep it your own until it bursts out of you
It's yours to keep or share

March 31, 2018

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I think it's pretty hard to not try and tune yourself—who you are, what you have to say, what you make and what you want to do—to the likes and dislikes of other people, communities, organizations. In fact it can come off as self-centered. Yet I find it harder to know what I want to say and what matters to me if I try and consider what everyone else wants. It can be a big distraction from the essential matter of my own direction to try and cater to other things. And while collaboration can unveil new understandings and create beautiful things, I find myself more drawn to the solitary path of working things out alone within myself. Not to say this path is uninfluenced, because that's impossible... But maybe the people I speak with and the things I learn from them, the ones I meet and see and revere in a quiet, not obviously collaborative way, are indeed collaborating with me. In this way we both hold onto the essential kernel of ourselves and at the same time offer it to those around us, without trying to control or produce some particular result.