Nor'eastah Summah - Playlist

Thoughts To Think About While Listening

What do you do when someone you care about lives in a different reality
and their reality is just as real as your own, because they believe it
but they can't see, in their reality, that they are actually being hurt
and when you tell them, they won't listen?

I had a friend long ago, who became not a friend, due to his and my choices
And nowadays we're friends again, but it took a long time to heal it
I get frustrated when people won't acknowledge truths they are aware of
Impossible or not
And find it hard to live around those people
Maybe it's a personality flaw, but I cannot be two-faced, acting like everything is fine
when it's definitely not
I have to speak my truth
And sometimes  people don't want to hear it
Or their justifications seem fine to them
Yet I feel like I can see through all of them
To what really matters
Because what I have more than anything
Is time, patience, and clarity to check everything
And intuition about what is good, and what is not

Maybe it's because I listen so closely to myself
That I can see through everything else
Yet not being the other person
The best conclusion I can come to
Will only be my own reality
That others may or may not agree with

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Walking
a deer trail, above a cove
I lay down seven times
To the thousand year oak—
                                                      And think
                                                      about his new owner
Who owns
house, tree, and water

Walking
I lay down seven times
To white-star-flower
growing stiff on a stalk, 
in a pasture for the horses
who were shot, loaded, and buried

Walking
I lay down seven times
And read straight-creek- great burn
In front of old birch, pasture-grown
long-limbed, 
beautiful trunk

Walking—
Nothing matters, 
no one notices.
Aspen seedlings
who gain red leaves now
grow taller every day
lay down only once
in a wind gust
all along the road
 

29 Oct 2017

There are tree covered hills along the coast of Maine
And islands in bays
Losing sense of direction, still searching for a place
But many here live on boats

Drop anchor wherever it’s safe
Come ashore to restock
And move on

Going Lite On The Land

In modern times it’s surprisingly easy to buy things
It’s so easy we don’t often stop and consider where they come from
Businesses have noticed our guilt, our anxiety about spending
And now there are all kinds of labels that make us feel better about buying things
But in the end buying something is still buying something

Because people won’t stop buying things
I’ve often thought a solution is to just buy less
So I wanted to share some ideas I’ve had about clothing
Particularly outdoor clothing

Clothing is a contentious issue, 
because everyone has their own style and reasons for the clothes they wear
It’s no different with outdoor clothing
But I wanted to dispel some myths about it
Or at least talk about what I think is true

The first myth I want to destroy is that with the right gear you will never be uncomfortable
The idea of always being comfortable through items is a fallacy
Truth: you can be uncomfortable and still be happy and safe

You don’t need a $200 jacket to go hiking on the weekends (you’re feeding your ego)
What you might need is a super cool ultralight umbrella (which can be used for all kinds of things)
If you still want to buy that gore-tex jacket, think about how many times you’ll use it
They suck to wear, they don’t breathe, you will only wear it when it’s raining
Would a simple, fast drying, rain resistant jacket, windproof jacket suffice?

You don’t need $150 shoes either
You can hike in whatever shoes are comfortable for you to wear
It’s more important to find footwear that fits you well than footwear that is waterproof, leather, goretex, or boots
Because the point is to wear shoes you can walk a long way in, cuz that’s what you’re doing
Unless you are planning to side step down a talus slope,
go way off trail, 
or fight a forest fire
heavy boots are over the top
Simple cloth sneakers with a durable sole will do, preferably not cotton
But if they are cotton, just buy some Fjallraven wax and put 3 coats on every few months

Pants, shorts, shirts, etc
One thing I would recommend is a sun hoody made by Patagonia
And maybe one other warmer hoody
Apart from that, you don’t need fancy wicking shirts, just wear polyester
You don’t need zip off pants, just roll em up
Another thing I will recommend: tights and shorts
The best of both worlds
I just buy cotton-polyester boy scout shorts at thrift stores or ebay for $5
I coat them in fjallraven wax, or coconut oil if that’s all I’ve got on hand
But really any shorts will do
They don’t need to be ultralight nylon, which won’t protect your skin in a fall
The don’t need to be jogging shorts
But tights, I do recommend investing in a pair or two of good nylon/elastane/whatever tights
Arc’teryx makes the best (they are pricey)

As for midlayers, just bring a thick wool sweater
It will last for years, and you can find em all over the place
You can get fancy and spend $100 on one from Arran
Or find a killer one for a few bucks at a thriftstore
Wool sweaters breath really well, so you can leave them on even hiking uphill
They deflect a light rain, and dry quickly
Mythbust: they are not warm when wet (nothing is)
That’s why you’ve got that umbrella and shell jacket

Backpack
Just buy a ~30L-35L arcteryx or Hyperlite Mountain Gear
You can use it for absolutely anything

Other tips
Notice the wind
The instant you get out of the wind you’ll be maybe 10° warmer, depending on conditions
This can be done in a billion ways
Just notice where it’s coming from, and crouch behind something
If it’s really pelting down rain and wind, find a wind block, set up your umbrella, and chill

Know Your Environment, Dress Accordingly
Heading to the coast in fall or spring? Bring that rain resistant jacket and plan to spend time in or near cover, because it might rain and blow
Heading to the desert? Bring a sun hoody and a hat
 

April 4, 2018

I have been thinking about the pursuit of recognition and fame as another thing to #resist lately. Maybe it's a few conversations I've had recently, or the long drawn out work of realizing I'm good enough for what I'm doing and who I am (and actually being proud of what I've done) that set me on this trajectory. But I've been thinking more about the importance of friends and community over this idea that I've always had about proving something to a lot of people I don't know. Maybe it's more important to focus on the small groups of people we know or meet along the way rather than trying to impress some mass of readership or a fanbase. Maybe our power to change things doesn't have to be on a scale any larger than the block we live on or the county we live in.

 

April 3, 2018

Keep it to yourself, it's a secret
Keep it your own until it bursts out of you
It's yours to keep or share

March 31, 2018

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I think it's pretty hard to not try and tune yourself—who you are, what you have to say, what you make and what you want to do—to the likes and dislikes of other people, communities, organizations. In fact it can come off as self-centered. Yet I find it harder to know what I want to say and what matters to me if I try and consider what everyone else wants. It can be a big distraction from the essential matter of my own direction to try and cater to other things. And while collaboration can unveil new understandings and create beautiful things, I find myself more drawn to the solitary path of working things out alone within myself. Not to say this path is uninfluenced, because that's impossible... But maybe the people I speak with and the things I learn from them, the ones I meet and see and revere in a quiet, not obviously collaborative way, are indeed collaborating with me. In this way we both hold onto the essential kernel of ourselves and at the same time offer it to those around us, without trying to control or produce some particular result.